calm v storm

sometimes i feel really good about working on this photography life i'm apparently leading and sometimes i just feel lost and overwhelmed. i'm so happy i'm going to therapy today because i can talk about this there, too. this blog is a sort of therapy for me as well.

i have so much going on, i'm planning for 2 trips: one to chicago at the end of february and one to new york city at the beginning of april. ahhhhhhhhhhH
on top of that i have to spend a boatload of my own money on equipement for my career and i feel guilty but it's MY money so i can do what i want with it. life is life is life is i don't know life is life. 

i just gotta take things one step at a time, one thing on my to-do list at a time. gahh.

happy but crooked life

currently:

hi
my life is so crazy right now and i am a coffee addict
i'm scanning in negatives and it's taking foooorever
i really want a nice digital camera because i crave that kind of thing right now
my hair never looks nice so i hide it under my pink hat that ryan's mom gave me for christmas
i really need spring, so spring please come to meeeeee
last night grace and i were driving home from lexington and it was really great, we have the same brain-you know- things work the same in both of our heads
i'm so tired of big sweaters and tights with toe-holes
i want shorts and 90's outfits and flowers
ryan and i are so happy right now
we've been dating for 3 and a half years as of yesterday
which is nice to think about :)
i want my life to have more meaning
i'm so lost with school right now
i feel alone in the crowds of people and i scowl at everyone
people know who i am and it's weird
oh well

i love you, feat. my new dress

 happy 3 and a half years on january 26th, rnr
xoxoxoxoxoxoxo